Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Guest Post: Light At the End of the Funnel


So this week, I'm volunteering for Vacation Bible School at my church!  Woohoo!  Super-fun, but means I have no life for the week.  Luckily, I have some amazing guest posts lined up for all of you!

Today's post comes from Elisa, whom somehow I didn't meet until recently.  As a fellow diabetic who has also recently started trying to get a better handle on things, Elisa has helped me a lot.  See this post from last week.



Ohhhh candy bar! Time to eat that without checking or taking insulin.  This is how I lived with diabetes for a good 18 years.  I never really thought about the transition from a "out of control" diabetic to an "accepting my disease" diabetic, until Jess asked me about it.


It has not been a drastic change for me in the sense that I kind of still do eat whatever I want but I at least check my sugars and dose for it now.  My main concern at the time I decided to deal with my diabetes was getting rid of the mind numbing headaches I lived with all my life.  I would literally say to myself if I went one day without a headache "what's wrong with me today?"  So to me once I noticed the change in my internal mood and that I didn't get headaches so often if at all is what made me realize I finally made the right choice. 


Sure I would love to get an A1c of a 6.5 but its something Im willing to achieve with baby steps. What good is an A1c of 6.5 if my sugars run 40 then 400 in a day?  I like to look at the big picture and I know an A1c doesn't speak to everything. My A1c was always high an ranged around a 10, but the one day my parents forgot to give me my insulin (dad would do nights and mom would do days, mistakes happen), I don't blame them for thinking the other was giving me the shot.  That night my A1c jumped to a 13. Until I can actually compare good numbers to my A1c, im not going to be completely satisfied or feel accomplished with a lower A1c.  Though as of using the pump I can definitely see an improvement.


Right now I'm just happy to be alive and living without complications.  Life for me since taking control of my diabetes has been amazing. I don't feel like death every single day. Honestly, ever since the depression is gone, nothing is holding me back anymore.


The best thing I would say about this transition is that I can finally accept that I have diabetes and don't feel like I have to hide it from everyone.  I feel like spreading awareness everywhere I go now! 


Thanks Elisa!  So happy to have met you!


Also, if you haven't seen Elisa's You Can Do This project video, you NEED to watch it! Seriously!







2 comments:

  1. Elisa, you are so brave for telling your story and finding help when you needed it. It's awesome that you've become such a supporter for others dealing with D. Way to go!!!

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  2. Elisa, I am so glad you shared the way you did. I talk about my D to the point of people wanting to strangle me, so I get. You have done something amazing, you should be so proud! I will be looking for you on twitter

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