So this week, I'm volunteering for Vacation Bible School at my church! Woohoo! Super-fun, but means I have no life for the week. Luckily, I have some amazing guest posts lined up for all of you!
Today's post comes from Elisa, whom somehow I didn't meet until recently. As a fellow diabetic who has also recently started trying to get a better handle on things, Elisa has helped me a lot. See this post from last week.
Ohhhh candy bar! Time to eat that without checking or taking insulin. This is how I lived with diabetes for a good 18 years. I never really thought about the transition from a "out of control" diabetic to an "accepting my disease" diabetic, until Jess asked me about it.
It has not been a drastic change for me in the sense that I kind of still do eat whatever I want but I at least check my sugars and dose for it now. My main concern at the time I decided to deal with my diabetes was getting rid of the mind numbing headaches I lived with all my life. I would literally say to myself if I went one day without a headache "what's wrong with me today?" So to me once I noticed the change in my internal mood and that I didn't get headaches so often if at all is what made me realize I finally made the right choice.
Sure I would love to get an A1c of a 6.5 but its something Im willing to achieve with baby steps. What good is an A1c of 6.5 if my sugars run 40 then 400 in a day? I like to look at the big picture and I know an A1c doesn't speak to everything. My A1c was always high an ranged around a 10, but the one day my parents forgot to give me my insulin (dad would do nights and mom would do days, mistakes happen), I don't blame them for thinking the other was giving me the shot. That night my A1c jumped to a 13. Until I can actually compare good numbers to my A1c, im not going to be completely satisfied or feel accomplished with a lower A1c. Though as of using the pump I can definitely see an improvement.
Right now I'm just happy to be alive and living without complications. Life for me since taking control of my diabetes has been amazing. I don't feel like death every single day. Honestly, ever since the depression is gone, nothing is holding me back anymore.
The best thing I would say about this transition is that I can finally accept that I have diabetes and don't feel like I have to hide it from everyone. I feel like spreading awareness everywhere I go now!
Thanks Elisa! So happy to have met you!
Also, if you haven't seen Elisa's You Can Do This project video, you NEED to watch it! Seriously!