And it did. To 7.5%. Not exactly the drop I had in mind. Sitting there with my wonderful endo, I was fighting back tears. Yes, the past month has been incredibly stressful, triggering my food issues and higher numbers. And as I was reminded, the last month weighs heavier in the A1c result than the first too.
But is was SO disappointed. Yes, I have issues with stress eating. Sitting and eating and eating and not SWAGing very well. But damnit, I have been trying!!! I've been doing the best I can. I know that if I could remove that last month and have gotten my A1c at the two month mark rather than the three, it would be lower.
I alternated between being sad and angry. But one week later, I am feeling better about the situation. I of course tweeted my A1c frustration, and received so much support and encouragement, from too many people to list. I also called my mom and Josh, who were loving and supportive also. Thank you all so very much. It means a lot.
Yes, I wish it had gone down more. But as so many friends and family members reminded me, it did go down, and that is a victory in and of itself.
I'm trying to focus not on the number, but on my overall health. I am in a much better place mentally and emotionally than I used to be. Yes, I still struggle with my food issues, but not every day like I used to.
I am talking much better care of myself, even if my A1c doesn't reflect that yet. Eventually, it will. I can do this.