Friday, December 30, 2011

The Power of the DOC

Thank you, Diabetes Online Community.

I've seen the power of the DOC at work this week.  I mean, I know how much you all have helped me, but to watch another person get involved is truly amazing.  That newly diagnosed friend for whom I made that list (which now has its own page on this blog) has begun to get involved in the DOC.  You all have welcomed this person with open arms, both in person (thanks Scott, Babs, and Bob) and online.

This person has been struggling, and to watch the support overflow has been truly beautiful and magical.  To watch someone else experience that "I am not alone" epiphany is beyond words.

I've been thinking a lot about when I first found the DOC.  I felt depressed and alone.  You all showed me that I wasn't.  My blog/tweetaversary is coming up, one week from today.  I will have been posting and tweeting for an entire year.  And I can't imagine my life without all of you.

You are making a difference in this people's lives.  What YOU do matters.

Thank you, DOC.  And Happy New Year!

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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Wordless Wednesday: Cookie Math

My Christmas present! :)


and after!  Cookies for Josh (since he gave me the mixer and all).

Cookie math for me. #itmakessenseifyouhavediabetes

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

A Simple Question and Quite the List!

It seemed like a simple question.

So last night, I was trying to put together some resources for a recently diagnosed adult person with diabetes (PWD).  I was trying to find some others who had been diagnosed as adults.  So I threw this out on Twitter:

The response I received is overwhelming!  I met some new people on Twitter I didn't even know!

So, if you're looking for people diagnosed with either Type 1 or LADA as an adult, here is the list of all who responded.  If you tweet or blog and you're not on this list, please let me know, and I'll add you.  Conversely, if you would like your name removed, that's not a problem either.

The girl I was collecting resources for is never going to believe it!  This is quite the list!

Thanks everyone!

(UPDATED) Type 1 and LADA D-peeps Diagnosed As Adults

Aifric: @AifricWalsh

Amber: @amberjclifford - Amber Cliff Notes

Amy: @AmyDBMine - Diabetes Mine

Ashley: @dream4muse - Tales of SWAGing

Alyssa: Dia-pathetic.

Babs: @babsssoup - Babs' Blog

Becky: @instructionsni - Instructions Not Included

Brian@bosh - Alternate Interior

Catherine: @dancethrubeetes - A Diabetic Ballerina

Charli: @charli1point5

Cherise@Diabetic_Iz_Me - Cherise

Chris: @iam_spartacus - A Consequence of Hypoglycemia

Colleen: D-Meanderings

Debra: @DebraGardner1 - Grammie's Creations & Such

Elizabeth: Type 1 at 30

Gerry: @IMGerryO

Glen: @canadianglen

Hannah: @HannahNitz - Rhymes With Hannah

Heather: @auntlyh - Beyond Your Peripheral Vision

Holly: @Arnold_and_Me - *Arnold and Me*

Jeff: @jeffmather - Jeff Mather's Dispatches

Jess: @LaMerenguera

Jim: @perrythepump

Katie: @1littleprick - 1LittlePrick

Katie: @avisualtinkle 

Kristina: @kristinacary

Lisa: @lisafromscratch - Lisa From Scratch

Manny: @askmanny - Manny Hernandez

Mike: @everydayupsdwns - Everyday Ups and Downs

Patrick: @PatrickMcConnell

Rachel: @PRobablyRachel - PROBABLYRACHEL

Sara: @saraknic - Moments of Wonderful - Sara Knicks

Scully: Canadian D-gal

Shawnmarie: @ShawnmarieS

Simon: @STroyCrow - Simon From the 70s

William: @WilDubois - LifeAfterDx--CGMChronicles

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Wordless Wednesday: Josh To the Rescue!

My fantastic husband stopped at home to grab this...

so that we weren't late for this...

Josh to the rescue! (And yes, I LOVED it!  One of my most favorite books ever!)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Diabetes Takes A Backseat

Such a fantastic weekend.

It was spent with two of my college roommates, who also happen to be two of my best friends.  We don't get to see each other as much as we would like to, so I really cherish the time I get to spend with these girls.

It was one of the girls' birthday Saturday, which was the reason for getting together.  We watched movies, got the most amazing pedicure ever, baked a birthday cake, and went out for a yummy birthday dinner.

I mostly watched this being made.  Including watching my
 friends literally throw sprinkles at the sides of the cake!

It was amazing.  The only not amazing part?  My stupid blood sugars weren't being cooperative AT ALL!  Grrr.  I think it was a combo of hormone crap and the pizza and baked goods.  I couldn't seem to get under 150.  Hovered in the upper 100s and low 200s all weekend.

But you know what?  I made the choice not to care.  I mean, I did my best to tame the bgs.  Correction boluses, temp basals, the works.  But I consciously made the decision not to let diabetes steal my joy and make me frustrated and unable to enjoy the time with my friends.

Sometimes, diabetes just needs to take a backseat.

Also, my birthday friend gave me this necklace for Christmas.  She said she wanted to get me something for Blue Fridays.  Thanks, friend! :)

Watch for this necklace next November!

Friday, December 16, 2011

Diabetes Makes Everything More Complicated

Oh my.

Sorry I've been kinda MIA lately.  I'm still playing catch-up.  I was totally out of commission from Thursday night till Monday.

I'll spare you all the gory details.  Let's just say this was the worst stomach flu I've had in a long, long time.  I haven't been so sick since I got food poisoning in high school (wound up in the hospital for that one).  Diabetes makes everything more complicated.

Lots of vomiting, some large ketones, and an ER trip later, I'm ever so glad to be back to my usual self.  Whew!

Now that it's over and done, I'm trying to focus on being thankful:
  • I'm thankful for my insulin pump, and the ability to reduce my basal insulin while vomiting to avoid going low.  Conversely, I am also thankful for the ability to increase basal insulin to combat large ketones.
  • I am also thankful for my blood ketone meter.  I was not able to ingest much liquid for a while, which makes peeing on a stick a little difficult.
  • CGM.  Oh, how I love thee!  I will do my best not to whine or complain about you for a while, since you worked so beautifully while I was sick.  Spot on the whole time.  Thank you.
  • I am thankful that my bgs stayed between 150 and 180 mg/dl the entire time I was sick.  So very thankful.
  • Although I did have to make an ER trip, I am thankful that was all that was required.  Not a hospital stay.  Whew.  Also, my ER nurse had a daughter-in-law with T1.  We chatted about pumps and stuff.  Diabetes is everywhere, yo.
  • My mom was on call, standing ready to come over or do whatever was needed.  Like making me chicken noodle soup, and running to the grocery store for jello and pudding.  And sleeping with her phone.  Thanks mom!

Last but not least, I am most thankful for my incredible husband.  This requires more than a bullet point.  Without Josh's diligent care, I definitely would have wound up in the hospital.  He was awake with me for almost 48 hours straight.  He ran to the store, crushed up ice for me to chomp, stayed home from work Friday so I wouldn't be alone.  Josh helped me change my reservoir and set (since I couldn't even really sit up), took me to the ER at 3:30 in the morning, and kept an eye on my CGM while I dozed in a medicated haze.
This was the sickest I've been since Josh and I have been together.  It was my first ER trip without my mom (and kudos to mom for letting go and letting Josh handle it all--I know that couldn't have been easy for her).  I am so thankful for all he did.  I would do the same for him in a heartbeat, for sure, but I am still just so grateful.  I feel so blessed to have such an amazing husband.  Thank you, Josh.

Something else to be thankful for: it's the weekend again!  And I'm not sick!  Yay!

Have a great weekend, everyone!

Please excuse some shameless self-promotion here.  I finally created a facebook page last night.  Head on over and give the blog a like if you feel so inclined.  Thanks! :)

Monday, December 5, 2011


So this post has nothing to do with diabetes, and yet everything to do with it.

This past week, a local weatherman here in Kansas City took his own life.  It is so, very, very sad.  His suicide has been getting a lot of press here locally since he was on TV every day.  Watching Fox 4 this week has been heartbreaking.  The reporters are trying to be professional and do their jobs, but you can see the emotion on their faces, especially of the morning crew.  They are grieving.

I want to take a moment to thank Don Harman's wife and family, for allowing Fox 4 to share Don's story and talk openly about depression and suicide.  Hopefully, this will encourage people dealing with depression to seek help.

Please take a moment and read this heartbreaking yet beautiful post from Don's coworker and friend Joe Lauria.

Also, here is video of the Channel 4 anchors talking to some mental health professionals about how to help someone dealing with depression, and how to cope when someone you care about commits suicide.

My heart broke when I heard the news.  Though I myself have not dealt with serious, clinical depression, there are people I love and care about who have.  And who continue to deal with it each day.  I know more than one person who has contemplated suicide.  Thankfully, those people sought help in time.

Depression is something that a lot of people deal with.  If you have diabetes, your risk of dealing with depression increases.  Why exactly this is the case is not known.

Depression can be situational, or it can be chemical.  Either way, it is a serious condition.  If you are dealing with depression, please talk to someone.  Seek help.  If someone you love is dealing with depression, encourage them to seek help.  Remind them that you love them, and they are not alone.

From the Channel 4 site: "If you are thinking of hurting or killing yourself PLEASE call 1-800- SUICIDE.  If you are struggling and need to talk to someone who understands, call 1-800-WARM EAR."

More resources are also available on the Mental Health America website, or you can call them at 1-800-273-TALK.

As a former psychology major and someone who has recently sought help for my own mental health issues, this is something I am quite passionate about.

Sarah wrote this incredible post about her own battle with depression and suicide attempt.  Thank you for sharing your story, Sarah.

Hang in there, my friends.  You Can Do This. 

*Disclaimer: I chose to write about this topic all by myself.  I do not know anyone at Fox 4, and no one asked me to blog about it.  Like I said, mental health awareness is a passion of mine.

Friday, December 2, 2011

How Can A Number Make Me Feel This Way?

Thank you all for sharing in my joy earlier this week.  I am still so thrilled!

But this post from Kerri yesterday stopped me in my tracks.  If you haven't read it yet, please stop and do so.  The rest of my post will make a lot more sense if you do.

Here I sit, having just gotten my lowest A1c in years.  And reading Kerri's powerful post brought tears to my eyes.  It's not effing fair.  The same blood test.  While I am celebrating, my friend is crying.  Not fair.  Makes me want to punch something.

Because I've been there too.  We all have.  Those A1c results that leave us in tears, stomp all over our self-esteem, and make us question everything we've been doing.  They leave us feeling defeated, wondering, "Why the hell do I even bother?"

And the guilt.  Oh the guilt.  Hello there, old friend who I wish would leave me the eff alone.  What is wrong with me?  Why can't I get my act together.  Other PWDs have amazing A1cs.  If they can do it, why can't I?

photo courtesy of lrargerich
(via flickr creative commons)
How can a number make me feel this way?

I have felt that way.  And if you are a person with diabetes, or the parent of a child with diabetes, you have too.  I'm happy with my A1c right now, but I know that at some point in the future, it will rise again, and those feelings will be back.

But can I tell you something?  Something that some fantastic friends have told me?


The head knows it, but the heart is harder to convince.

My A1c is just a number.  Yes, it is an important number.  Important because it relates to my health.  I need to take care of myself.  And I want all my friends in the DOC to take care of themselves.  But we ALL go through patches where we don't.  Living with diabetes is hard.  Like Cherise was talking about on DSMA Live last night, diabetes can't have all your attention all the time.

But those feelings?  The shame, the guilt--THEY ARE LIES.  Can we do better?  Yes.  But beating ourselves up about the number is not going to aid that endeavor.  An A1c is a number.  It is data to be used to say, "What now?"  Big thanks to Bennet for reminding me about that.

Also, my better is not the same as your better.  I'm thrilled for Brian and his A1c, but I don't think I'll ever see mine there.  I don't want it there.  My diabetes is different than Brian's.  Our A1c goals are not going to be the same.  Your diabetes may vary.

Celebrate if your A1c is where you want it to be.  If it isn't, call out guilt and shame for the liars that they are.  And read this post from Melissa.

You can do this.  One day at a time.