I kept tearing up all day on Friday every time my phone beeped with an email, tweet, text or Facebook notification. Once again, I am overwhelmed by the support of this community. Thank you.
Reading through the comments on Friday's post, something struck me. Part of all the encouragement included a fair bit of "me too."
When it comes to diabetes, I know I am never alone. But when it comes to my food issues, I still feel alone quite a bit. Hearing from other people who also deal with food issues means more to me than words can say.
Diabetes really effs with our relationship with food. Totally and completely screws it up. Honestly, sometimes I'm amazed all PWD don't have eating disorders. Lee Ann wrote a fantastic and moving post about her journey with body image and diabetes. Stop and go read it now.
We all have our own struggles linked to our diabetes. For some of us, that includes food issues and eating disorders.
There's shame that comes with having such problems. I've felt it myself. I don't want to admit to other people that my first reaction when I feel stressed or anxious is urge to eat ridiculous amounts of food. It's hard for a lot of people to understand. Why I just can't stop eating, or turn the urge off. Why it's something I have to deal with every single day.
It doesn't work that way, because it's not really about the food. It's about me learning healthier ways to cope with my emotions. And I am. Making the decision to start seeing a therapist who specializes in diabetes and eating disorders was one of the best decisions I've ever made. Things have gotten better.
When I was struggling over the weekend, I opened up Friday's post and read them comments over and over. Thank you for reminding me that I am never alone.
Which is why I'm sharing this. If you're dealing with any kind of food issues or an eating disorder, please know that you are not alone. That there's no reason to feel ashamed. It's not your fault. We are here for you. You can do this.