Tuesday, February 26, 2013
You Know Me
This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness week. This is a topic close to my heart.
If you know me at all, you know that I have food issues. I have for a long time. Binge eating is my demon. The thing I battle. Thankfully, with treatment, I have made great progress. Things are going pretty well overall.
But still. My food issues are there. Lingering. Waiting. Ready to pounce when I'm feeling weak.
I've not been diagnosed with an eating disorder. My therapist thinks my binging is caused by anxiety and depression. But I'm sure I meet some of the criteria for an eating disorder. And had I not sought help when I did, I don't know where I would be.
Kim wrote an incredible post about diabetes and food. I completely agree with everything she said. Diabetes messes up our relationship with food. Totally and completely. Food becomes a loaded topic. It's no longer just food.
I am so happy that the overwhelming approach nowadays appears to be to let kids with Type 1 eat what they want and bolus for it. Like Kim said, when I was a kid, there was a long list of food I wasn't allowed to eat. Having forbidden foods like that is not a good thing. And I know it did long term damage to my relationship with food.
Sometimes I feel like my binging completely rules my life. That food holds this tremendous power over me. That I have no control over my own body. But I know this isn't true. Thankfully, I have an amazing therapist, and incredibly supportive family and friends to lean on. They remind me that I can do this, and that I am never alone.
Please take a minute to read this post from some members of Diabetes Advocates. Having any type of diabetes increases your risk of developing an eating disorder. But there are things we can do. Lee Ann has some fantastic advice about talking about food and eating disorders. For me, talking about my binge eating helps. It frees me of the secrecy and shame.
If you struggle with food issues or think you might have an eating disorder, please TALK to someone. The National Eating Disorders Association can direct you to places to find help. You are not alone. I know the shame. I know the guilt. I know how it feels to be completely powerless.
You may have heard the saying "depression lies." So do food issues and eating disorders. There is hope. There is help. Please talk to someone.
The theme for #NEDAwareness this year is Everyone Knows Somebody. You know me. Please help spread the word. Spread the hope.